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Update: 7/10/2026
I have been thinking a great deal about my priorities. The world as we knew it is over and I have to decide how I want to spend my remaining time on and offline especially as my health gets worse. I will be putting more focus on finishing the novel I have always wanted to write because I want to have fulfilled that one dream of mine before it is too late to do so. If I have time to do (or feel like doing) a Jem video here and there or write reviews of audiobooks or other media, I will absolutely post them here as usual, but right now I have higher personal priorities.
I will also be getting off of most social media except for CounterSocial.
Take care of yourselves and those you love. Stay safe and stay strong. ❤️
Latest Writing
Delusions Are Exhausting (Not Me)
Believing lies is willful ignorance and delusion 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙏𝙃𝘼𝙏 𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙣𝙖𝙜𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙨𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙝𝙤𝙥𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙮 𝙞𝙨 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙚𝙭𝙝𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙥𝙚𝙤𝙥𝙡𝙚. Not me.
On Selfishly Surviving …
𝙄’𝙢 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙖 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙤𝙣. I don’t do things out of the goodness of my heart. I do them because I selfishly value my own life and sanity over others. I learned SURVIVAL skills because I had no choice.
TLDR; stop complaining …
Passions do not solve or evolve anything. Passions only maintain and imprison.
Audio Podcast
Elaine Is Reading: Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde > Chapter 8 – Part 2
As far as I'm concerned, Chapter 8 is the absolute best chapter in the entire book. This is also where the story pretty much comes to a very abrupt end.
Elaine Is Reading: Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde > Chapter 8 – Part 1
It is a shame that the two people who have the most interesting perspectives in the entire book are the only two people to never have their stories told.
Elaine Is Reading: Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde > Chapters 6&7 – Part 2
This video goes into depth about how the story mirrors so much of the reality of addiction spirals and dealing with the breakdown of friendships.
Elaine Is Reading: Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde > Chapters 6&7 – Part 1
I decided to do these two chapters together because they are two of my favorite chapters and because the are very similar in feeling and foundation.
Elaine Is Reading: Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde > Chapter 5 – Part 2
Most people who make movies and adaptations focus solely on the final chapter of the book. The story of Jekyll and Hyde is not just the final chapter.
Elaine Is Reading: Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde > Chapter 5 – Part 1
This is one of the chapters that I kind of wish Stevenson’s wife had permanently destroyed. It’s the most contrived, forced, lazy chapter of the whole book.
How (Not) To Survive
Just because you CAN'T handle something, doesn't mean there is something wrong with those who can. Stop being the problem and become part of the solution.
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Delusions Are Exhausting (Not Me)
Believing lies is willful ignorance and delusion 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙏𝙃𝘼𝙏 𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙣𝙖𝙜𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙨𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙝𝙤𝙥𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙮 𝙞𝙨 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙚𝙭𝙝𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙥𝙚𝙤𝙥𝙡𝙚. Not me.
Realism ≠ Pessimism
The truth doesn't set you free, it only imprisons you in a new reality that completely obliterates the one you were hiding within before.
A Dark and Drowning Tide by Allison Saft
It’s nice to read books that are about people who understand what it means to love themselves in a healthy way and love others with understanding and depth.
The Deeper The Bow …
Apologies are agreed upon and all about gesturing. When the depth of the bow indicates the depth of the apology, that's called theater, not truth.
Stop Hating People Who Don’t Hate Themselves
Being a slave is TRAUMATIC. Being brainwashed is TRAUMATIC. Being groomed on lies is TRAUMATIC. Stop hating others who make time for self care.
Dead Souls by Angela Marsons
I've been struggling with my interest in this Kim Stone book. I absolutely loved the first 5 books but white women writing about racism is ....